This picture was taken day our beautiful baby daughter was born. 7-8-10
My husband started to naturally gray this year. He still looks so young, so healthy.
How were we to know that a tumor, bigger than a grapefruit, was waiting to make its appearance so soon after this beautiful day..
His facial hair is now fully gray thanks to the chemo drugs he was taking.
A new drug will be started next week - the prior drug failed us miserably. Hopefully there will be less pain this time.
Radiation in my husband's case is used for pain control. PAIN CONTROL - REALLY??? He is given radiation in a room with a door that is 6 inches thick. He is alone on a hard board, while the technicians stay OUTSIDE of the room for their safety.
How did we get here?
My beautiful daughter Adelaide recently saw a picture of her daddy from last year......
"I knew it was to good to be true." Our big girl struggled to say.
"What do you mean." I ask.
"Our life, it was just so....so perfect. And, now........it's just not." She answered.
Now I wait, in the lounge. A lounge? Really. Where the heck is my cocktail, if this is a "lounge"?
Other families are here. Are they feeling the same pain - sadness -despair? Are they telling their children to be "grateful" for today because they just don't know what's going to happen.
I am thankful for today. Because today I get to hold my husband's hand.